Saturday, January 7, 2017

New Year, New....something

   I've been procrastinating this post. I had to make something fancy. Something put-together. But that's so hard for my brain to accomplish, when it's being pulled in twenty different directions and the thought of blogging makes me want to cry.
   I think I felt that if I started blogging at the beginning of the year, I'd have to be consistent for the rest of it. And I don't know if I can do that. But right now, it's after midnight and 2017 is 8 days old and I have no filter, so here we go.
   2016 was a mess. Not just for the world in general, but for me. I don't think I've mentioned this yet, but my family moved in August, and I started college. My dad wasn't able to move with us, because he needs to sell the businesses he owns first. My little sister is going to a real brick-and-mortar charter school for the first time in her homeschooled life. My mom is working for the first time since I was born. So, life has been understandably difficult. And if that wasn't enough stress, Mom's health problems and anxiety have gotten way worse. For a while, she was barely able to eat, and she had to go to the ER twice. Since my sister is so busy with school and ballet and my dad isn't here, that leaves me with a lot of the responsibility.
   That's why I've been so inactive here. That's why I failed NaNoWriMo. And that's why prayers are really really appreciated.
   I have lots of great plans for 2017. Big plans. Exciting plans. Whether or not blogging will fit into those plans, though, remains to be seen. I want to do better. I'm going to try to get better. You can expect some posts coming up in the next few weeks, at least.
   I swear, I had a plan for this post when I started it. Oh well. There's your 2016 life update. I hope your 2017 is off to a good start.


  1. You didn't fail NaNoWriMo. You had other priorities. You made the right decision in giving your time and energy to those over NaNo.

    In 2016, you grew stronger, kinder, and more understanding. I know. I saw it firsthand. You fought so hard for yourself and other people. You're fighting things no one should have to face -- untreated ADHD and anxiety, intense family struggles, and a lot to do with personal identity. And I know you had some major friend issues in 2016. But you're still here. You're still fighting. You're brave, and growing into a better person every day.

    That sounds pretty successful to me.

  2. Girl, I posted my New Year's post just a day or two ago as well. I know that pressure, to make it something 'good'. Rambling is fine. <3 It's honest, and real, and still just as good. I will be praying for you. And I'm so excited for this year, for you, and for meeting you!!! <3 :D

    1. I'm very very good at rambling, so I'm glad it's not super annoying. Thank you for the prayers, we really appreciate it. And I can't wait to meet you!!!

  3. Ah, my lovely beautiful human fren <3 I love you very much, and you are in my heart and on my prayers <3 I love you so much, dear squadmother! <3 I can't wait to hug you and squish your lovely face